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This was a post I worked up last week after I yelled at a woman for talking loudly on her cell phone in a hospital waiting room. She made call after call about her landlady business and eventually I said “lady!” “I’m sorry,” she said, “I got to work.” I said, “yeah but no one wants to hear your business.” Right before I called her self important. The point of this story is that sometimes acting out sideways feels good. Sure she deserved a little of what she got by nature of being rude. But I could have easily put on headphones and ignored her. Instead I chose to funnel my frustration about being out of control of this disease into a situation where I felt out of control about a stranger’s behavior. Not the best of me perhaps but satisfying just the same. It’s ok to be human and to be flawed and one day I might regret that reaction. But if I never do, I’m ok with that too. On a separate note, heading into surgery today so it’s likely I will be taking a small break from posting. ♥️ #cancer #doublemastectomy #breastcancer #sexandillness #stageiv #stageivcancer #stageivbreastcancer #sexyselfie #instacancer #sexandcancer #fuckcancer #screwcancer #metastaticbreastcancer #dying4sex #death @romwe_fashion
So any plans I make tend to go out the window. Dinner plans, concert plans, never mind travel plans. The only points on my schedule that stick are doctors’ appointments. Today I’m going to reframe this and say I get to live for the moment. In the moment. And I’ll find out what I’m doing when the next moment comes along. Without illness this is fairly liberating. Also, please note, I am super grateful for all of your comments and will respond when I’m less depleted. ♥️ #cancer #doublemastectomy #breastcancer #sexandillness #stageiv #stageivcancer #stageivbreastcancer #sexyselfie #instacancer #sexandcancer #fuckcancer #screwcancer #metastaticbreastcancer #dying4sex #death
Yes I’m here again. Same issues as before. Inability to eat. Got a fancy feeding tube up the nose which feels like someone set fire to my nostril. But at least the staff is caring and my view is nice. At night, there’s some kind of rotating color light that splashes against the ceiling. I imagine I’m in a cozy pod in Japan. Or in some futuristic movie where cancer doesn’t exist. #cancer #doublemastectomy #breastcancer #sexandillness #stageiv #stageivcancer #stageivbreastcancer #sexyselfie #instacancer #sexandcancer #fuckcancer #screwcancer #metastaticbreastcancer #dying4sex #death

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Articles I’ve been featured in

  • Hollywood Holler: This Cancer Thriver Walked The Runway At NYFW, Going From Model To Role Model
  • Elle Magazine: Every Model in This Fashion Show Is Living With Breast Cancer
  • Hutch News: Keeping cancer a secret by Bill Briggs
  • CBS News: Private struggle: Why some with breast cancer keep it to themselves by Mary Brophy Marcus

Some other posts

  • For crying out loud, don't call me a warrior
  • Making my mark before I die
  • Single with stage IV
  • Why my life goal list doesn't include beating cancer
  • I don't want to write about Cancer
  • Honest statement of the day
  • The comfort of now
  • We're all headed to the same place
  • My stage IV life
  • I HAVE DIED.

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ill
gifts
crazy
beat this
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everyone-and-noone
Implode
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